While Away

   So I am really going to try to keep this thing updated more often, I love to write so I think this will be a great outlet for when I am not working on my stories, which I wont lie, I put on hold WAY too often!

   A LOT has gone on since I last wrote 2 blogs ago. Tons of drama in the family, though I still love them dearly! Also a life of a loved one was taken away. He is (wont use past tense!)  one of our best friends, my husband and mine. He is my husband’s younger brother and even though he was younger than my husband, he really looked up to him and of course loves him dearly. He passed on September 26^th, 2011, but we know he is still here with us and always will be, he makes his presence known and I love that, even though it freaks me out some times! 

   Soon after we had a little fright with the baby, after the gender appointment we had to come in again and get another ultra sound done because they couldn’t get a good position to get a picture of the cord insert. So we come in again and they do their measurements and we love those ultra sounds, because we love seeing the baby and hearing how great of shape he’s in, but we go back to see one of my doctors afterwards and she says something about a urine flap and really confusing some thing we didn’t understand and that there was some thing wrong and the way she said it made it seem like the end of the world. This was right after we lost my brother-in-law so this was absolutely crushing. So we freak out about it, though she said it was common in boys and that it usually fixes it’s self and we have to come in for another ultra sound to get it checked again later. So we go in again and they couldn’t get a good enough position to measure and they send us back to one of my doctors again, this time a different one (I have rotating Dr’s). She tells us what it is, is that one of his kidneys are slightly swollen, but only very slightly and for all they know it could have been the cursor measuring wrong. So we have to go in for yet another ultra sound where they determined that every thing was perfect! All that stressing for nothing, but at least I got to see my baby a couple extra times! Here are some of the good pictures that we got from the ultra sounds!

 

Also we moved again, which I don't recommend doing while pregnant! I was so sore for days! 

   Also check out Pagan Culture's fun give away! Spellbinding Gifts, Post-Winter Solstice Goodies and Stuff... and these reading challenges!

Witchy Books Reading Challenge 2012 by Pagan Culture

and

2012 Pagan Reading Challenge  by The Domestic Pagan 

   Also, one more thing... I know this blog is TOTALLY Random, but here is another fun idea by The Domestic Pagan called Follow My Blog Friday and this Friday's question is...

FF#1 Question: What are your New Year's Resolutions regarding your spiritual and magickal practice?

   My resolution is to get my ass in gear and study, study, study! To get more active with my practice and not to be lazy about it. I've been studying for 2 or 3 years now, I know still a baby in the craft, but it feels like I haven't really gotten far and I think it is because I mostly try to study and not be active about it. So that is my magickal resolution!

Here are the rules: 

1. (Required) You must have a blog in order to add your name to the Linky Tools list. No it does not need to be a pagan blog. However it MUST be written by a pagan, be pagan friendly, or have something to do with witchcraft, Wicca, the occult, paranormal, magick, fantastical creatures such as fairies or dragons, mythology, nature, spirituality, or the metaphysical. The Linky list is only open for one week. After that there will be a new Linky list on my next Follow Friday post where you can add your blog.
2. (Required) You may only add your own blog. Associating someone with a pagan blog listing is not cool and borders on "outing" them without permission.
3. (Highly Suggested) It would be nice if you followed my blog (The Domestic Pagan).
4. (Moderately Suggested) Answer the Follow Friday question in your post.
5. (Optional) Add the Follow My Blog Friday banner to your blog.
6. (Optional) Leave a comment on this post.

Much love ~

~FaeriesWheel☼

Been Away

   I have been away for a while because of some thing tragic that has happened in our family and quite frankly I had lost all motivation for a while. I am starting to accept the "new normal" and trying to keep moving forwards. Our baby boy is healthy and due to arrive soon so that has brought a lot of light in.

ANY WAYS I happened upon a link while I was on my new google+ page looking at some of the pages I followed and it brought me to The Domestic Pagan blog. I saw a challenge they are holding for next year and I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to get my butt back in gear! Here is the link if you are interested, should be fun!

2012 Pagan Reading Challenge

I don't know how to set links to pictures on this site, but if you click the link under the picture it will take you there! I will probably read about 10 books I think the next year since I will be busy with my first child, I don't think I could guarantee much more than that, but I will try my best to get in as many books in as possible!

Also another fun reading challenge by Pagan-Culture!

Witchy Books Reading Challenge 2012

And the baby is...

   So we went to go do our appointment on the Autumn Equinox and let me just say, I had to drink 32 oz an hour before the appointment and seriously right after I took a few sips, I had to GO! I couldn't though! So we get there and I don't have to wait way too long, but they finally have me come in and they do my ultra sound. My husband, mom, mother-in-law, and grandmother-in-law were all there. The lady looked around and started measuring every thing which made me have to go even more and then she goes to look at his parts and his legs were closed! So the nurse went on looking at every thing else that they needed too and came back and his legs were still in the way. Finally he starts moving and the FIRE ALARM goes off! So we clean off my belly and head out where the lady at the front desk says that it is just a test and that the people doing the test didn't tell any one. So we head back in and get all ready again and look some more and seriously like a minute or two after we started checking he decided to show us his parts! After that he was very open with showing us! So if you haven't realized I have been calling the baby a he and that is exactly what he is <3 We are thinking about naming him Auron (Are on) Taylor. Taylor being my Grandfather-in-laws last name.

Dancing on the line

   Merry meet every one! So I know I am not totally out of the broom closet yet, more like one foot in and one out, but I make it pretty obvious to those in my family who do not know. There are only 2 other people that I really care to tell and so many times I have wanted to say some thing to them about it, but I know it will just end up in an argument and I think it would hurt them because of their beliefs and what they believe happens after death.
   I have already written out a letter for them to read for when ever I feel ready, but right now I really feel content to just make it obvious and see where it goes from there, the obviousness is a new step forward. I've even made an album on my facebook called broom closet and I comment and follow pagan pages all the time. So I guess we'll just see what happens!

   On another note my 22nd birthday was on the 22nd of August (woohoo!) my favorite number is 2, so hopefully this will be a great year! So far it is and I think it will get even greater once the baby is here! We will get to find out the gender on Sep 23rd! Hopefully the baby cooperates and lets us see!

Hope all is well with every one! Merry Part )O(

☼FaeriesWheel

Oh and PS, look at this CUTE drawing my mom had done for Petunia Mae and me!

A Helpful Reading.

   This morning I read 2 stories that were written to my mom about our dog Petunia Mae. One of them was beautiful and happy and the other was equally as beautiful, but the way it was put upset me a little, now I am sure this wasn't on purpose and it really helped build the story, but it had just made me a little sad, besides the feeling of sadness already there from losing a precious friend.

   So I went to go try to lie down and get a little more sleep, because it was still a little early in the morning, but I just couldn't sleep because I felt too upset. So I started a cup of coffee up and decided to read a book that I haven't read in nearly a year. I started reading this book in about September of last year I would say and they have little sections for daily reading, so I would read that day's section every day. This book is called Simple Abundance A Daybook of Comfort and Joy, by Sarah Ban Breathnach. My Nana had given me this book last year and I had read it up until October and then I stopped reading it for some reason.

Simple Abundance on Amazon

   Any ways, so the point of this is that  I picked up the book again to read today, after almost a year and today's section (August 7th) really surprised me. It was about your four legged companions and how they have such a great impact on our lives and about a cat she had lost. Reading this section really helped me feel a lot better. It's funny all the little coincidences like this that happen in life, it really makes you wonder, are these really a coincidence or is there some one helping us find the answers we need for comfort in life?

Punkin's Pride Petunia Mae

   On tuesday my family and I had a hard loss, our dog, she was my very first, I had gotten her for my 10th birthday, but she was born the Father's Day a couple months before from my mom's dog Punkin. Well... we had to put her down because her heart was enlarging and pressing on her lungs which in turn made her lungs fill with fluids and cause her to get pneumonia. The vet said if we didn't lie her body to rest that he believed less then a month she would drown in her own fluids. So we did the hardest thing I think any of us has ever done and we let her go. I always hoped I would never have to come a crossed this choice in life, but having pets makes it rather inevitable some times.

   It is really hard for me because one of my main beliefs is, who has the right to choose when some one (being any living creature) dies? I don't feel that mankind especially should be able to make this choice, but yet we had to for our beloved family and friend, my first baby. I just hope she can forgive us for the choice we had to make and I hope she is happy some where with both her eyes and her mommy and that they are both happy.

   Here is a video I put together of her with some pictures that I was able to find:

Updating

  Yesterday and today I feel a lot more myself then I have in the past week or so. I don't know why, maybe it was just because I had found out I was pregnant and my mind was like eat! I was eating a lot and I felt really gross. I am back on track more now. I am still eating slightly more than I was because I wasn't eating a lot before I found out I was pregnant. I am feeling nauseous some times, but so far nothing has come up.

  I had my first baby doctors appointment the other day though it was more of an unpleasant woman check up. I hate those, but they are necessary I suppose! I have my next appointment on the 29th and I think that is when they will tell me about exactly how far along I am and I think we may be able to listen to the heartbeat! I cannot wait!

~FaeriesWheel☼

A lot Going on!

   So today is my husband's 25th birthday! So we will being celebrating that again today!

 On another note, I took my third pregnancy test this morning and again got a positive, so I am thinking that yeah, I am pregnant! I am so excited we've been trying for about 4 months and every month I always thought I was so I got my hopes up. Then I did a tarot reading one night, the Celtic Cross and because I actually felt pregnant (I was experiencing unfamiliar aches) my question was, "Am I pregnant?" Well I got a lot of cards with number meanings. I used my little book that came with it since I am still learning those ones.

 One of the cards mentioned something about something taking 4 months to happen and then my 6th card which links to the outcome card was guardianship and then I had a card that said that I would have what I was working for now or within 2 weeks. My out come card though was the lady bug, which meant wish fulfilled and it said that the lady bug's adulthood life is any where from 9 months to a year and a half.

 So I talked to my mother-in-law who is really good at reading cards and told her what I had read, she told me to take a test in the morning and so I did and it was a positive, the sign was really light though so I wasn't sure if I was or not. I ended up going to the doctors to get my blood drawn, but it wont be in until tomorrow. So my mother-in-law told my sister-in-law, who is staying the weekend with us for fun, that since she owed her some money, to buy me one of the good preg. tests that actually say YES or NO or PREGNANT or NOT PREGNANT. So I took one yesterday during the day and it said Yes+ and then I took one this morning and it said Yes+. So I am thinking I am pregnant!

 Also today is my Nana and Papa's 50 year anniversary! So happy Anniversary to them!

!!!

New Vid Up c:

~FaeriesWheel☼

Tomorrow!

   I am going with my husband and some of our friends and family to laser tag tomorrow for a celebration of my husband's birthday! His birthday is really the 12th, but since he has two days off and tomorrow is his first one we are going to go do that. He wanted to either go to a water park that was about an hour away or laser tag, which is probably also an hour away since we live not quite on the farm lands, but not quite in the main cities either, though this is really starting to build into one, which is kind of unfortunate for the fact of all the plants and everything that are getting ripped out and every thing.


   I have been reading the Natural Witchery book by Ellen Dugan and I really, really like it! I love her writing so far and right now she is my favorite, though I have only read two of her books. There is also another book I just ordered for my kindle tonight on hedge witchery and how to incorporate magic more in your every day life, people have given it really good ratings and it sounds like it will be really good.



Light and Blessings )O(

~Faeries Wheel☼

Just an Update

   So I uploaded a new video to my youtube channel FaeriesWheel. One thing I was going to talk about in this vlog is how I used to be terrified of spiders. Don't get me wrong, I am still scared of them, but just seeing them used to freak me out and it doesn't so much any more. Cockroaches are a different story! Same with those mosquito eaters, because it seems like those and every other flying bugs but butterflies and lady bugs, like to fly right at you and not just right at you, at your face!

  Also another thing I talk about is how I am not fully out of the broom closet. I feel like once I tell my dad and step-mom that I will be comfortably out and that will be good for me. There have been many a times that I felt ready to, but I have not followed up on them. I don't want to just text it to them and be like "oh, by the way..". You know? Though I don't feel like I have the guts to say it to their faces yet either, especially since I am one of those people who get all tongue tied when I try to explain myself, I hate that!

)O( Blessings!

~Faeries Wheel☼

Random

   Hey every one. I just wanted to talk about something...
I know people have their own ways to find their Deities, but I am trying to figure out if maybe one is reaching out to me.

When I first started practicing I read the book To Ride a Silver Broomstick by Silver RavenWolf in a section she talks about Gods and Goddesses. Well right away I felt a connection with the name Selene; the Greek moon Goddess. Her name comes into my head often and now every time I look at the moon it seems like I see an S shape inside when it is fuller.

 Also there is another time with a different Goddess. The Hindu Goddess Lakshmi's name came randomly to my head while I was halfway asleep one morning, though it has never really came back to me. I had been watching a video on youtube about her I think a couple days before this had happened, so I am wondering if it is because of that or if I am being called for something. Not sure though!

If any one sees this blog, give me your input! Thanks!
)O( Blessings!

~Faeries Wheel☼

Awakening

   Hello everyone and welcome to my new blog page. I am Faeries Wheel from youtube. I am going to be posting all sorts of things on here that perhaps have a lot to do with my videos on youtube, or not. There may be times that I don't really quite feel like making a video about certain things so it will more than likely end up on here. Hope you all are having a great week!

Blessings! )O( 

-Faeries Wheel☼